13/52 – Get Emotional

This entire week vibrated with emotions leading up to our baby’s first birthday.

I’ve never been one for birthday parties and cake, for lots of festivities and celebrations. But there was something about a first birthday, MY baby’s first birthday, that had me inspired.

While the party itself was lovely with family and friends, a cake smash and a photobooth with our guests, the magical part of the Doodle turning one was the eve of her birthday. It was re-living the early labour signs, how I went into labour and realized that I was indeed going to have a baby. It was the magic of mentally re-living my homebirth moment by moment a year later.

I spent much of the week leading up to the Doodle’s birthday musing on what I was doing that exact moment one year ago. It was a very private and in my own head exploration which very much mirrored the way my body chose to labour.

My baby is one and that’s a big milestone for her, for me, and for our entire family. It was her birthday. But the fact that it was her birth day that was most meaningful to me caught me by surprise. That it was the process of birthing her that was so special to me.

We created a baby, I gave birth to this baby, and for the past year we’ve been her entire world. She’s on this planet because we created her. But she’s her very own firey, strong-willed, yet shy, little being. She’s strong, yet sensitive. She’s absolutely captured every available inch of my heart.

I birthed you Doodle. And in birthing you, you gave me the most transformative day of my life thus far.